And so it snowed. and snowed and snowed a hell lot more and then it was a snow storm hahah thats funny. They said it was just gonna be a day or two of snow but now it seems we're all knee deep in snow with freezing rain to boot! haha

Goes to show how much BC welcomes me.. and gave me a white christmas early. Dayyyyyyyyyyyym!!

Gawd ive never felt so cold in my life i tell ya.. its freezing outside!

Oopsy is this a dead giveaway that im enjoying the snow too much?! ahhaha maybe.  i love it i love it. I didnt realize it was gonna be like this. Its really snowing. Once again it hits me that im in canada and not the phils. I miss the hot humid weather but then again every thing that im experiencing is new and i wouldnt trade these experiences for anything in the world..

its a weird world after all....

i set up a date for two of my friends.. now my fubu wants to date her? Now what does that say abt me or more importantly about him? haha says he is a jerk? ahole?mofo? ummm something like that or more like that. Its weird to the max. I mean why would he wanna do that? To see my reaction again? WTF!!!

and he says he isnt playing mind games. yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaah right! what the hell do u call that then???

yah as my world turns..so does my friend's too lol Seems like everybody is doing their own thang. Dude is having problems with her bf and Newbie (i'll give them pseudos if u dont mind) is wanting me to hook her up with guys. Well that aint no problem. I can hook her up with some hotties. Pimp em more like it. If all goes well then we got a triple date for next weekend. Oh no bad intentions for Dude. But if shes asking me to hook her up then so be it.

On the other hand, ive had a lot of free time lately. I dont really wanna talk abt it bec it just gets me down.Am not where i want to be. Am not doing what i want to do. Man! am i so wrong for the job. But i know myself, i always do my best on what am doing. So even if im not crazy abt my curren t job, i still try to perfect it. Everyone's been saying am good at it and am so nice blah blah ... gawd makes me sound like a doormat! I dont like that my boss is just calling me day to day to tell me when i get to work. That sucks.  I dont like it that he's like always on my schedule. And plus working 3-4hrs a day only gives me about 20days/ week. Its not enough to keep up with my expenses.

Ohhhh Ohhh i just got a call.. i got a better prospect now. I got work!! yeeehaw! I'll be working mon, tuesday and friday.. and lotsa hours too! yeeehaw! am i glad about that. Now i dont have to be on the edge wondering if Ken calls so i get hours to work... i got enough hours now. Thank God! Now am happy hehe

yay yay yay!!! now i gtg and take a shower cause i got work at 5pm and a date tonight too! woooooohooooo!!! am i lucky or what???

man i feel lousy.. eversince sunday ive been feeling all tired and exhausted ( notice the redundancy?)  but its how i feel.. so down and lousy.  I know ive been all busy working and partyin. But geez to top it all off, ive got abdominal cramps!  On the positive side, Aunt Flo is in for a visit. Am i ever so thankful for that! hehe Can you say relieved?

Gawd i cant concentrate..someone is IM'ing me. Its a long story. But its heartbreaking. He's the reaon for the title. But man oh man, i dont want him to break my heart right? Its just not fair. He doesnt treat me the way I would like to be treated. He umm doesnt woo me. Then again why would he when we are just simply friends. I dont trust him fully. I did but not anymore.

I guess its with work and love that has stressed me out. Am always in a tiffy.

think think think.. work work work..

the joy, the wonders, the excitement.. hahah do you have any idea what im talking about? prolly not. Am gonna be vague about this on the grounds that it may incriminate me but i'll tell you one thing, now i know the meaning of "hook ups" LOL

and man.. its strange. Its definitely not me. But well call it curiousity. Ive had my taste of it and it doesnt really make for anything meaningful or long term-ish.

Cant say that am looking for something permanent.. but am i? Gawd i can hear my biological clock ticking but wth .. should i hurry?! should i really? It kinda hurts when people remind you .. that you're not married and ur close to 30. Dammit. I would wish that certain person would shut the hell up and respect my choice to be single at this point in my life. Am not some needy biatch that needs a man to complete her life. Granted it will make my life fuller but it doesnt complete me entirely. I wanna be comfortable in my own skin before i start doing whatever. Having a husband will be a new chapter in my life. Am not picky.. am just looking for the right one. And how would i know which one is Mr. Right. Well whatever falls my way, i'll umm test the waters and see and if its not what im looking for then i move on. Am not scared to be alone in life.. I have a wonderful family and friends. Im not lonely nor am i alone.

Im not like that one particular person that needs someone to complete her world. Cant live without a guy.. Afraid shes gonna be lonely. DUH that makes NO sense whatsoever to me.  Am at this point in my life where I live for myself.. to make myself happy and me alone. Not on anyone's terms. Ive say done most of the things i want to do with my life .. almost anyways! haha